I like to think of myself as a decent artist and designer. I like to draw, and I think to try my best. A few of my works are down right great. I could do better, but I could also do worse... and I'm content usually.
So why is it when I want to do certain things... I have a physical, negative reaction?
I wanna draw something cartoonist. Simple, right? Haha...
This is the deal. I wanna draw something easy to draw. Specifically, I wanna do a Nuzlocke comic. It looks fun, and despite my irritations with my patience of a Nuzlocke, I still wanna try so I can at least give it all I got. That's not a bad thing, right?
I sit down and try to practice something more cartoonish.... and then come the physical symptoms. First I start to sweat... Then I start to itch a bit. After a few minutes of that alone, I get frustrated. My own art looks ugly to me... A few of my internal organs feel like they are twisting up on themselves, and overall I become incredibly frustration, angry, and confused to why I can't draw a simple fuckign cartoon comic! I feel I could smash my head against a wall over and over and over.
I COULD DO THIS
I could also probably do something like this
All rights reserved to respective artists.. love your comics, by the way.
I could probably do something a little more complicated. Its simple lines, cell shading and sometimes not even detailed background. And it looks presentable and great.
So why is it when I try to do something that doesn't require 100% accurate anatomy, I start to have an anxiety attack that makes me come to a screeching halt. Fucking lord, I'm so frustrated! I can't even doodle a character to star in a possible comic.
I've drawn fine before. So why not now? or ever for that matter. Every time I tried something like this... it always comes to this strange art block that seems to make me stressed to the point I drench my clothes in sweat. I just took a bath an hour ago and already I feel dirty.
...does anyone else feel like this? Genuinely I wanna know.
Apologies for my rant..